I always thought that I would like to know what my future holds. 
Visits to psychics, daily reading of horoscopes were “clues”. As I aged (and my waist grew wider and boobs grew longer… I became grateful for NOT knowing what was going to happen in my life. If I were told that some of the more tragic things were going to happen in my life why would I have wanted to go on? What would have given me the courage, the strength to keep walking even through what at the time seemed monumental challenges but after experiencing the above named, quickly became minuet?. Sure if we were told only the GOOD that were to come to us in our lives we could hold onto that, but even that would grow tiresome, and would not seem so special when it finally arrived.
Occasionally I still read my horoscope, but I do not live by it. I read it more for entertainment.
I have found that people do fit within their astrological signs and birthdates and I find that interesting, and if I choose to go to a psychic it is typically a medium that can and will translate information between this world and that to those who have passed on to another. But I have found that if I meditate, if I pray, and if I just keep doing the next right thing, all that I am supposed to know, to hear, comes to me and I need not assistance with any of this. I feel very fortunate here. Insane? perhaps.
There is much mystery is not knowing what tomorrow holds. My girlfriend reminds me that while I can sometimes struggle with the “waiting for the shoe to drop” syndrome, good things can be just around the corner too. A day of sunshine may perhaps bring much more joy and optimism than a day of rain but I still have the choice of whether I choose to allow my thinking to go there.
“When you are dealing with something that cannot be changed you have choices. You can choose to struggle, battle and cling, remain stuck – stuck in an unfavorable situation with negative feelings, OR you can choose to go with the flow… You can choose to ACCEPT.” -unknown… as I stole this from my gf pz’s fb lol
No crystal ball, horoscope, psychic or 
fortune teller can change that which cannot be changed, or even you. No one can change your thinking but YOU. There is no magic pill, no answer to the puzzle left no matter how many times we jump on that hampsters wheel in our heads… sometimes it is just simply about… acceptance.
Today I am struggling with accepting something about someone that I just do not want to. I am working hard to stay in my reality and be true to myself and in turn be respectful of another persons wishes.
“This, too, shall pass…” In the meantime, I think I’m going to go find some chocolate!
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